Hi Miranda. I know a little about how you feel--I remember a Christmas when our girls were young, when money was so tight that we couldn’t afford presents at all. We have fond memories of that year, though, because we had to be so creative that the gifts were very unique.
The most memorable present was a coupon book that I have my daughter. One of the coupons was a “Get Out of Jail Free” to be used for any offense. Little did we know that she would save that coupon until she was 12 years old, take the truck for a “joy ride” around the block when we were sleeping and get off scott free! It is fun looking back now many years later, but it wasn’t fun at the time. It was scary and depressing. But God was faithful and met all of our needs, but not all of our wants.
I will pray that God will meet your needs too, and give you peace.