Anger in the Soul

The anger that lies within the soul
rules our lives and takes control.
If we let anger have it’s way
it will only bring sorrow and decay.
Love so often is set aside
it is for gotten and left to die.
Love changes ways of life
does away with trouble and strife.
If you got anger in your soul
don’t let it take control.
Be on the guard and handle with care
love is the answer it will always be there.
Love one another from the start
keep god on your mind
and love in your heart

By John Eversman (All Rights Reserved)
March 8, 1999
I found out God will never leave you or forsake you
You may leave him but he will never leave you

This may about me many years ago. I had been saved for about 21 years, when my first grandbaby died in March 1985. I completely lost it and became very angry at God. “How dare God allow my precious grandaughter to die”. I blamed God and left the church. I could not be consoled.

I told my dear wife of many years that I would take her to church on sunday and pick her up, but I would not go myself. After about three months, I started to miss all my friends in the church… and also began to realize what I had done to myself.

A couple of Sundays later, after church was out, a lady from the church walked by my car and said, “ really been missing you in church”. I realized that I really missed being in church, too.

I went into the church and knelt at the altar and asked the Lord to forgive me. My pastor and many of my friends stayed and knelt with me. I realized, then that the Lord does forgive our trespasses if we ask him to.

I realize now that Jesus was with me and carried me until I was ready to return to Him.

I praise Him for his goodness and mercy. His was with all the time, waiting for me to return to Him. I will never leave Him again!!!

Dear Brother in Crist
During this time I wrote many poems ( I might add I disliked poetry and never read much of it) I think this was gods way of letting me take out my anger in words that latter blessed everyone that reads them. I to came back to god leaving all the anger and guilt in his hands.
Thank you for your testimony keep serving the only one that matters in the world he made a way that all should follow and use a bible as a road map.
it will guide and direct you in the paths you must travel. please feel free to visit myspace,com\overthehillsinger and click on the one man quartet I sing all the parts and listen to a song still holding on.
God bless you
John

ANGER WITH GOD tends to take many forms.  Through our travels we have met many who are “angry with God”.  It manifests in the “unwillingness to forgive”, either another or self; it manifests in a “turning away” as has been witnessed to in this thread; it manifests in “retribution because God didn’t act as we thought HE should”; and on and on. 
I have even heard on more than one occasion “there can’t be a god in heaven...............he wouldn’t let this happen to me”!  A profound untruth to be sure..........but one spoken out of terrible hurt or anger about something beyond the capability of the one speaking to “understand” God’s Holy Will and Holy Plan.
I do not mean to preach a sermon here......but I encourage anyone dealing with any of these issues to read these threads from our website:

GOD, WHY DID YOU LET THIS HAPPEN TO ME; ARE YOU GREATER THAN GOD?  Part 1 ;GREATER THAN GOD, Part 2; ARE YOU ANGRY WITH GOD?;

I pray to the Father above that these threads will bless many with understanding of what a WONDERFUL GOD we serve.  Amen and Amen

IF you are struggling with the issues we normally struggle with as Christians who are beset with the constant attacks from the enemy, satan, there are other threads on our website that will help your daily walk.  This is NOT a “commercial” attempt by us, (the threads I have sent you to are free handouts to anyone who asks); it is simply one Christian reaching out to anyone in need.  Amen and Amen

I ran across this post today. It caught my attention because I too was mad at God. I became a born again Christian when I was 20 years old in 1981.
In 1982 my aunt was murdered by her boyfriend who also killed himself.
In 1987 my neice was killed after being hit by a drunk police officer. She was 16 at the time. In 1991 a dear family member died suddenly from a stroke.
Then in 1992 my older brother was killed when he fell off of a horse that kicked him in his head. The next year my younger brother killed himself with a shotgun in the chest. That was the one I couldn’t cope with. I cried out to God WHY???? WHY didn’t you stop him???? Honestly I don’t know if I was angry because so many tragedies had happened or because I “couldn’t” stop my younger brother and God “didn’t”. It took me years to overcome what I was feeling on the inside. I was still going to church. I was still praying and witnessing for Christ. I was teaching children’s church. Eventually I came to a place where I wanted to die. All I could see was the wrong in this world. I couldn’t do anything about anything because stuff happens to everyone. I just wanted it all to stop. Over time major depression set in. I was torn because I knew God and things were happening to me that I had no contol over in my mind. Several times I thought of ways to end what I was going through. I knew I couldn’t let go of God because he was the only one that could help me. I eventually had a nervous breakdown that required a doctors care and a long journey of recovery. I never stopped loving God but I was angry with him. I had to come to a place of forgiveness. I had to forgive myself, others and God. God is so merciful. He blessed me more during those days than I had ever been in my life. I gave him praise more during those days than ever before. Although I was split in my mind, my spirit was always where it should’ve been. God is good. I understand now that the WHY isn’t as important as it was before. His loving grace is greater!
Maybe my story will help someone else hold on to Jesus during their hard places in life. I still need prayer, as I pray for others walking in these shoes because life and death continues. God’s mercy is new everyday also.